March 2020|| UNCENSORED.  

Hey guys,

The long-awaited March is upon us.

For some of us, January was just a trial month.  

There was so much pressure to write down new year resolutions, set realistic goals, and put up vision boards. 

By February, while some of us had barely settled in, the wave of disappointments began to hit. 

For some, the disappointments were mild and far apart, so they were able to bounce back.  

For others, the disappointments were so overwhelming that they just settled back to their old system of life. 

February was an especially rough month for me. 

I experienced my first episode of burnout this year, and on two different occasions I just couldn’t make it to work.

On a particular day, I was so overwhelmed that I was beside myself crying uncontrollably.  

Thank God I was home alone. 

Apart from the mental exhaustion, I was also physically drained. 

There were days I was so tired at the end of my workshift, that I stayed back at the hospital for some minutes, to regain my stamina before heading home.  

To add to the stress, two of my work buddies got job offers elsewhere, at the same time.

One moment we were together cracking jokes and smiling the stress away, and the next moment they were leaving.

I was devastated. 

To some, maybe it’s an exaggerated response, but these guys were my PLUG: the major reason I looked forward to going to work on most days.

The thought of not having them around anymore was rather distressing.

As if that wasn’t bad enough, the workload at the hospital where I work significantly increased, with an increase in the frequency of shifts per doctor.


Plus I had a couple of personal challenges to also deal with. 

Like I didn’t see all of that coming. 

When I say I barely made it out of February alive, I’m not even kidding. 

Thankfully, when I thought I was at the end of my rope, the Holy Spirit minstered to me through this scripture:  

“Rejoice not against me, O mine enemy: when I fall, I shall arise; when I sit in darkness, the Lord shall be a light unto me.”
Micah 7:8 KJV

And this has been my WEAPON in the battle against depression.

No matter how many times the enemy strikes, I won’t stop fighting back!

I hope the rest of this year will be an enjoyable experience. 

But no matter what happens, God is good and he can be TRUSTED. 




Musings 1.6|| The Little Things.

On Saturday, I got a text at 7:16 a.m.

With an energy I didn’t know I had, 

I jumped out of bed and sorted out my laundry.

But the guy didn’t show up until much later in the day.

Today, I did not to wait for motivation to find me,

 I picked up my toothbrush and went to look for it.

Sometimes, motivation lives inside my bathroom.